I’m lying on a sun bed in Turkey and I don’t know if I’m pregnant or premenstrual. I’m due on my period but it’s late and I’m usually dead on time. See I took the morning after pill after sleeping with Wayne. Whilst we started off with safe sex, as the night went on soon we were having unprotected sex. Not sensible, I know but I never claimed that title.

Anyway, my appetite has gone through the roof. I crave cake and ice cream constantly. And although I usually love swimming, today it feels like too much effort to drag myself off the sun lounger and go for a swim. Reading Rebel Wilson’s memoir, although a stellar read, feels like too much mental effort too. So I lie here doing nothing. Idle.

I’m bloated yet hungry. Calm yet irritable. Last night I felt angry and aggressive. Today I feel mellow.

Mood swings and varying energy levels are a fact of life when you’re a woman with ADHD. Impulsivity can lead you to make risky decisions and not think through consequences in the heat of the moment. Hence the wondering if you’re premenstrual or pregnant.

Hormonal fluctuations and ADHD are a double whammy. In the early stages of your cycle oestrogen surges and apparently this activates dopamine. In the latter stages, oestrogen plummets and medication just doesn’t seem to do its job anymore. Pharmaceutical ADHD treatment clearly is no match for Mother Nature.

The only effective remedy I’ve found is to go with the flow as much as possible. If medication is no match for wanton hormones, then how can I possibly be.